everybody knows anz rocks, she is on twitter, facebook, MSN, myspace, to name but a few, she is the gal thats always laughing, known for her bounciness, her ability to make anyone smile, always positive, the gal they all turn to if they need cheering up and to have a laugh, the girl with ((( hugs ))) whenever they feel down or ill . but she isnt real, she is just a mask that i hide behind, so nobody see's the tears im really crying,
its been this way since i can remember, i was popular at school, had loads of mates, was a swot but was always up for a laugh, nobody saw the real angie no-one ever saw the bruises, no-one ever saw the tears, the girl who would sit in the woods on her own just so she didnt have to go to the sad lonely place called home,
the girl who would climb out of her bedroom window on a night, sit watching the stars and the moon, silently crying on her own, wishing on that star and the full moon that someone would rescue her and take her away from this life,
it was a wish i had made since i was 9 years old,
at 13 tho my wish changed and i decided the only thing that was gonna grant my wish was if i did it myself, so 1 night i snuck all the tablets outta the medacine drawer, nicked dads bottle of whisky, snuck out of my bedroom window, went to a deserted house, took the tablets, drunk the booze, and went to sleep forever, only it didnt happen, a couple had decided to stop off for a bit of hanky panky and found me,
i was taken to hospital, stomach pumped, psychiatrist called, and i had to lay there as my mum explained i was clumsy and an attention seeker and cos i was jealous of my brother i had done this because they had said i couldnt go to a disco,
and im ashamed to say i just lay there, i didnt explain there was no disco, i didnt tell them the bruises were from the weekend before when dad had beat me cos my sis had lost her barbie doll and had said i took it ( she had found it in her bed ). i just lay there, and after the dr's talked to me for hours i was diagnosed with depression, given tablets and had to go to the mental health hospital weekly for councilling.
but on the upside i was assigned a social worker, and after talking to my teachers he began to click on and eventually at 14, my 1st wish came true and me and my stuff was packed into his blue car, driven to the other side of town and i was placed into care, and they were the happiest i have ever been, even with depression,
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